Sooooo, I have decided missionary work is pretty interesting. It has got to be the most rediculously hard thing I have ever done. It doesn't help that I was just randomly successful at anything and everything that I did before my mission without trying. But basically I have never wanted to be successful at something so bad in my life and tried so hard to assure my success, and at the same time I have never been doing something for so long without ever seeing a significant amount of success. It is getting to the point where it just seems rediculous to me because I see people who aren't obedient to the rules, who don't have personal testimonies, and who are just mean people having anywhere from 2 to 5 times more success than I am numbers wise. I am what seems to be one of the record holders for lowest long term numbers and it just has been continually blowing my mind for the last 13 months. But oh well, right? It's not like the point of my entire life 24 hours a day for the last year has been to be successful. It is no big deal.
You just gotta keep trucking. Luckily I know that my eternal success is more measured on the fact that I am unwearyingly obedient and work hard to do everything and that I literally am expecting nothing in return for the work I do. You just get tired after 13 months of continued failure and people rubbing it in your face at least twice a week. Looks like someone needed to learn humility or something. Whatever that is...
But in other news... that is pretty much it. We are working so hard that I don't even really remember what happened this week. It just seemed like one long day. We helped one of the few people we have found here that actually have some level of interest in religious truth (i.e. enough interest to pray about it) to stop smoking. Well we are in the process of helping her, and actually our part is very small but very cool. We taught her about how we can be cleansed from our sins in a real way through the gospel, and she voiced some concerns about the fact that she had addictions that even with all of her force she couldn't stop. I got super happy and excited when I heard that because things like that are perfect faith building opportunities. So we made sure that she understood the principle of repentance and asked her if she thought it was possible for the Lord to help her with stoping smoking. She responded that she was sure it was, and so we promised her that if she did all she could and trusted in him as we had taught her, she would stop, and then we gave her a priesthood blessing. Being that the authority which we used to bless her is real and that she has real faith, when we passed by the next day she had said that even when she gives in to temptation and starts smoking she gets super nautious and has to throw the cigarret away after one drag. I am going to miss seeing miracles like that. She is super cool and will probably baptize this month or the next.
My companion said that he has been thinking about weird stuff lately and then smiled really big. And so I was like "what have you been thinking about?" and he just smiled and said, "...cows." That was this morning and is for sure going to go on a romantic greeting card or something like that.
It is fun that Kelsey graduated. Those were legit stencils. 'nuff said.
There is a gaggle of crazy kids just staring at me silently as I type and I know they want me to do a magic trick or something like that, so I'm gonna have to go so what I can make up.
I love you all. I am gonig to clean my suits for the FIRST TIME today. haha. they are gnarly, but I've been using them and my sweater and my gloves too because it is super cold and my body no longer produces body heat being that it just has bones and fat on the inside. Stay classy.